Monday, April 09, 2007


11:50 PM

hey guys, i'm back!
was down with tonsilitis for e past 2 wks. had 2 work night shift though i was quite sick. din wanna take mc cos it'll be very ma fan n very hard to find replacement. my supervisor was saying tat my other colleague on night shift took mc e same time i was sick, disrupting other pple's roster. if she knew i was sick too, how would she have reacted? prob screaming at me.. nobody knows e sacrifices tat i made n how tough it was for me, except god. does it matter, anyway? i'm not e kind who'll make a big fuss n makes sure everyone impt. knows wat's happening to me.

well, i tot i could love like God loved and accept e flaws of everybody around me. but i'm proved wrong. indeed it's not tat easy. a little discouraged, disappointed with myself n think i'm just a hypocrite, cos wat i think doesn't correspond with wat i feel in my heart. think i need to be patient 4 god to mould me into his shape.

my respected christian supervisor is leaving soon le. sad. how would e ward be like without her?
more cold n less human touch? hmm, we'll see.

was reading colossians ytd n came upon this verse chapt 1:10"And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may you please Him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God." what high expectations Paul and Timothy had for the christans! worthy of the Lord n please Him in every way... Examined my life n i see myself falling short of tat expectation so many a times cos of my wretched self n was reminded of my previous sins. cried.. went on to read chapt 2:13-14 "When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, god made you alive with christ. He forgave us all our sins, having cancelled the written code with its regulations, tat was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross." We are so victorious in God for He has overcome all our sins!