Sunday, March 26, 2006


9:30 PM

Love test - animal test. it's quite accurate 4 me. try it.

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.

4. You don't like it when your partner is insecure.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one that you care not only about the present but
also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship
that you can grow with.

6. You are tolerant; you'll try very hard not to commit adultery.

7. You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your
freedom.

8. At this moment, you don't want to be tied down by a steady
relationship, you just want to flirt around.

http://naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm


8:41 PM

went for flower arrangement on fri. e flowers were gorgeous. esp the white orchids with a tinge of light pink. looks as if they were blushing. ha. think me n sis did a great job. hallelujah! am looking forward to doing flower arrangements 4 a wedding in june. it'll be real challenging. got quite some church events coming up. my pastor's wife will b conducting puppetry classes 4 sun sch teachers 4 us 2 'wow' e kids. 1 day kids camp, easter celebration with e tuition kids, n also medical service @ balai on 29th april. i do wish 2 go but whether i'm able to is another thing. sighs. seems like i'm aways changing my shift. n my supervisors aren't v happy cos of tat. sometimes gotta prevent doing certain things just 2 please pple. tat's life.

some joyful news. yeah. enjoyed working ytd. was a gd combination of staff. :) my gd friend @ work just got into a relationship. happy 4 her. n my church friend's mum finally decided 2 accept God. i know it must have been a big struggle 2 her cos she has been a buddhist for v long. glad another life's saved. do hope i can help bring her to church so tat her spiritual life can blossom.

a sis in christ was sharing abt her missionary trip @ algeria. she went alone with two other missionaries whom she din know well. heard tat e christians there really face immense persecution. they can get killed for just claiming tat they're christians. n the librarian in church there had 2 leave his wife n kids just because he wanted 2 b a christian. wat strong faith. think i'm really v blessed 2 b living in s'pore. maybe too blessed. Would i still choose 2 follow God if i were in tat librarian's shoes?

was reading ytd's newspaper n chanced upon an article of local youths and their views on sex. according to a survey carried out on abt 500 teens, one in four had sex. the stats r indeed worrying. wat's e world coming to?

Wednesday, March 22, 2006


9:06 PM

Tots 4 e day

2day's another off day. finally managed 2 drag myself out from bed @10am 2 enjoy e fresh air n morning breeze. am always reminded of God's intelligence n power whenever i take time 2 gaze upon his creations. i love nature. went jogging, played with a swing, wrote on sand. love being alone sometimes. i rem playing on swings with my bro n sis when we were still young. those were e days. we'll always have titbit sessions @ e void deck where e swing is. playing with see-saws, chasing each other. ha.. sometimes i wish i could go back in time.

e last day of my night shift was a drama. how so? one of my patient was on the dangerously ill list. Her BP was as low as 90/40. a matter of time tat she goes. Her caregiver - the son, is in state of denial and just can't let go. While his mum was still gasping for breath, struggling to live on, he said he wanted to die and be buried beside his mum. ironic huh. His face was pale n was fainting. we quickly got him a chair, blanket, a hot drink n notified e night Sister n security. e other relatives consoled him n soon he was feeling better. on e same night, another of my patient kept bleeding per vagina. advanced Ca cervix n she's only 30 plus. it worries me 2 see e amt. of blood. no adrenaline packing 4 her cos it'll be futile. there's nothing much we could do except to give her blood transfusion n keep her in bed. i realised there's so little man can do. so limited but i'll do all i can 4 my patients to keep them safe n comfortable with God's love in me! :)

what's most impt in your life? friends? family? money, status, fame? "The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever." 1 John 2:17.


Thursday, March 16, 2006


9:52 PM

many things happened in these 2 weeks. like a drama. complaint directed me, i fell sick, a brawl broke out bet. 2 colleagues, my gd friend broke up with her doctor bf, my colleague left for mount E and i had a go at debating.

tat "fine" day i was working with a part time SSN. She was super lazy, just sat @ the nurses' counter the whole day. I had to cover all of her duties, somemore got dangerously ill patient. helped her assist dr, give meds, answer callbells, do all e dressings, blah blah. was fuming like mad. tat day, we had 2 complaints. one was cos tat SSN refused to attend to a patient's relatives who was highly demanding, the other was directed @ me n my colleague for not giving iv painkiller earlier. as usual, we had scolding sessions with our managers. after work, that SSN apologised to me, but i refused to talk to her. was already feeling sick after such a day @ work. e next day was supposed to wake up @ 5.30am for am shift but had a bad flu and sorethroat. overslept n 4got 2 tell my supervisor tat i wasn't coming. got a shouting session from her. took mc n din tell her how long my mc was, cos it's my rest day e next day. got another shouting session from her. din dare 2 take mc though i was still sick the following days. i went 2 my other supervisor 2 complain abt tat SSN. apparently, someone else has already complained abt her.

it's a bad environment 2 work in. A scolding supervisor, many lazy colleagues, no team spirit, demanding relatives, very ill patients. It's really tiring n taxing 2 work in such a place. N i see some of my once-hardworking colleagues slacking cos few nurses actually care abt the patients nor is our supervisor going 2 recognise their efforts if they cont to work hard. i wonder how long i can still hold out. Aren't they nurses because they wanna help patients recover and should do all things for the good of the patients? i can't stand it!!! should i attempt 2 change them? could i do it on my own?

went 2 debate ytd. was fun and enjoyable. think i faired well. the topic was "Advanced practice nursing is not applicable in singapore." guess a lot of pple dun know wat advanced practice nursing is. Advanced Practice Nurses r nurses who have Masters in Nursing and can practice like junior doctors. APNs are well-received overseas. however, i think the status of nurses in s'pore must improve b4 the introduction of APNs.

Friday, March 03, 2006


8:10 PM

last week was real stressful. had 2 work when i had 2 plan church activities like children's worship n sat's fellowship. glad it all went well in God's hands. shared a passage abt mary n martha (luke 10:38-42) during fellowship. it reminded me 2 turn my eyes upon Jesus even when i'm busy with many things. glad tat e rest benefited from it too. May we have a heart like mary's n e feet of martha.

went 4 ktv with my colleagues few days ago. was quite fun. finally heard them sing. after tat we shared with each other abt scary encounters in e hospital.. till some of us got so scared. well, i think there's nothing much 2 fear if u've done nothing terrible 2 them. besides, i've God with me. :)

was sooo drained ytd after work. cos understaff. got out of e ward @ around 5pm when i'm supposed 2 end @ 315pm.. did 4 dressings n gave all e meds (iv n oral) all by myself.. felt like a machine @ e end of day. just worked n worked n worked. no time 2 stop n take break. think i lost weight again. sighs.. met piggy after work 2 buy present 4 my bro. spent sometime 2 choose e best one 4 him, glad he liked it. my family had chang shou mian 4 dinner n ate mango cake after tat. superb man.. wat a long day it was. finally 2day got day off.. just nice.

lots of activities 2day. visit my friend, tuition in church, bird's 21st b'day party, n fellowship (playing captain's ball 2day). finally some exercise. hmm, wont b much of a rest day 4 me.