Tuesday, May 23, 2006


12:24 AM

my 3rd night of work 2day. 2 nights were over b4 i knew it. it is esp tiring to nurse very ill patients who can't even move an inch. even if they can, they'll b grasping 4 air with the slightest effort 2 move. how i fear that they die. how vulnerable life is.. one of my confused n ma fan patient died unexpectedly. not even on the dangerously ill list. maybe it's better 4 them this way, they can finally end their suffering. talked 2 Sister re: transfer to general surg n getting more manpower. seems like she could only arrange 4 e clerk 2 buy meals 4 us. dun think we could afford 2 go 4 breaks anyway.. but at least it showed tat she cared.

went 2 buy breakfast after work 2day, saw my senior nurse smoking. she lied to me tat she's getting sth from her car. i couldn't hide my disappointment. how could she? she's a nurse! she sure knows its negative effects on her health. sighs.. n she's not e only nurse i know who smokes. maybe i'm a little too judgemental, not right 2 impose my thinking on others. It's their lives anyway.. she said she smokes when there's lots of stress. but aren't there other ways 2 relieve stress? she's been thru a lot, gone thru e hard ways of life. but i still think it's just an excuse.

saw myself developing more patience when i talk 2 daddy nowadays. :) glory 2 e Lord!

lots of things going on.. tuition camp, flag day, meeting friends 4 dinner n window shopping, prep 4 e trip.. practically going out whenever i'm off duty this wk.