Wednesday, March 22, 2006


9:06 PM

Tots 4 e day

2day's another off day. finally managed 2 drag myself out from bed @10am 2 enjoy e fresh air n morning breeze. am always reminded of God's intelligence n power whenever i take time 2 gaze upon his creations. i love nature. went jogging, played with a swing, wrote on sand. love being alone sometimes. i rem playing on swings with my bro n sis when we were still young. those were e days. we'll always have titbit sessions @ e void deck where e swing is. playing with see-saws, chasing each other. ha.. sometimes i wish i could go back in time.

e last day of my night shift was a drama. how so? one of my patient was on the dangerously ill list. Her BP was as low as 90/40. a matter of time tat she goes. Her caregiver - the son, is in state of denial and just can't let go. While his mum was still gasping for breath, struggling to live on, he said he wanted to die and be buried beside his mum. ironic huh. His face was pale n was fainting. we quickly got him a chair, blanket, a hot drink n notified e night Sister n security. e other relatives consoled him n soon he was feeling better. on e same night, another of my patient kept bleeding per vagina. advanced Ca cervix n she's only 30 plus. it worries me 2 see e amt. of blood. no adrenaline packing 4 her cos it'll be futile. there's nothing much we could do except to give her blood transfusion n keep her in bed. i realised there's so little man can do. so limited but i'll do all i can 4 my patients to keep them safe n comfortable with God's love in me! :)

what's most impt in your life? friends? family? money, status, fame? "The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever." 1 John 2:17.