Wednesday, October 05, 2005


2:49 PM

I do have a dream. That is, to be a caring nurse. Currently, i'm already working as one but am still adjusting to the line. And, I've discovered that it's not as easy as i expected it to be when i stepped into the school. I do feel scared when my patient collapse on me and i remembered how it felt like when i first did last office for a patient who died just minutes ago. It was quite traumatic for me. Thank God i got over it. I guess it's true that wan4 shi4 qi3 tou2 nan2. There were other aspects that i didn't like. All the admin work and the doctors - so irritating. Always have to hound them to get things done and does things half-way. Situations become real trying when demanding patients come my way too. so stressful. I cried out numerous times to God. Only he knows what exactly i've been going through. I'm so so glad that i've God in my life and He supplies me with all the emotional strength and patience at work. :)

I started to wonder if nursing is really the job for me. Unsure. What is God's purpose for me? ( i'm looking for the answer in "Purpose-driven life" by Rick Warren. finally i started to read.) For now, i've decided to hang on and see how it goes. There have been encouragements from family, friends and patients though. Patients wrote in to praise me for the love and care i showered upon them. It feels real good to be appreciated. :)

That's about nursing. Here's sth else.
My dad really worries me. Ever since he met with an accident abt 8 yrs ago, he loves to collect junk like a garang guni. He uses the house as the storeroom. U can imagine what my house looks like. To him, it is his way of contributing additional $$$ to the family. (Btw, he has a proper job as a security guard). How much can he earn with that? With the junk at home, the whole family feel so itchy from the dust and insects which comes along with them. We've talked to him so many times but he's so stubborn. We tried throwing the junk away when he's out but he'd carry it back again. And he suffers from injuries these days when he falls along the road or some drain for one reason or another. When will he ever learn?